Have you ever prayed or wished for something? To be able to do or have something? Well, that is what I have been doing for the past 5 years…praying that I can leave my job to be home with the kids and get my house in order. That time has now come, 1 week ago I gave my 2 weeks notice to leave my job of 8 1/2 years. My job, being a supports coordinator a.k.a social worker for individuals with intellectual and developmental disabilities. I have come to love working with “my families” over the years. They are the reason I was able to continue to work as long as I have, they have truly blessed me! Even those families that one would consider “difficult”.
I wrote a little about this last week, but today driving home I found myself fighting back tears. All these emotions are stirring up. I don’t want to leave the families I work with or my wonderful co-workers. I feel like I am leaving one”baby” for another. But I also don’t want to be run down and burned out.
After seeing my son, run to the bus this Fall when he started Kindergarten, with excitement, I had a light bulb moment. I thought, Even though I like what I do, this is not what I want to continue to do. I haven’t found that special job for me, one that gives me “happy feet”. It made me see or realize that as much as I loved my job and the connections I made with “my” (yeah I call them my families:) I needed to look for my passion. Ever since that moment, when I saw his “happy feet”, I have been on a mission. After much prayer and discussion, I decided that the first step was to leave my job, which I can now do, with lots of penny pinching:) For the past week I have been smiling ear to ear and haven’t looked back and I won’t look back. I have come to the point where I am tired of juggling the busy life of working with children and working in what seems to be a low paying job with extremely high demands! I have prayed and God has answered.
So, home I will be in a week:) I will keep you posted on my emotional journey. Stayed tuned for my new adventures home with the kids, the transition from working full-time to being home and getting my blog design business and my husbands business off the ground.