Motherhood and marriage sometimes brings you to the point of no return. Brings you to a place where you think, where has the time gone? and do I get anytime for myself?
In an attempt to force myself to workout and stay in shape, which is so hard to do when you are juggling life, I decided to join an adult Field Hockey League. Field Hockey had been my life for so many years and an escape from so many stressful life events. So, after months of debating and encouragement I did it. Now after I did it, I found myself stricken with anxiety, thinking, What have I gotten myself into?
As I sat on the bleachers for our first game, I was almost numb! I sat there watching these young college girls who were going to be on my team, thinking I am going to look like an idiot. After all, I had not played in 11 YEARS!! So, I introduce myself to my team, because I signed up as an individual so I went in totally clueless, just knowing that I wanted and needed to feel that rush again. Meanwhile, my dear friend, calls me and says “YOU CAN DO IT”, while I am telling her I am petrified and she is laughing hysterically on the other end. The game begins!!
Trying to pace myself on the field after only running 2 days before in preperation, I am struggling for air. For the first time in my life, I was waving to the sidelines for a sub. I would have been happy to stay on the sideline for the rest of the game, it was that bad. Not only was I struggling for air, I was sucking badly, and the “young” girls were not too happy. I was not getting back for defense, ummm because I was breatheless..LOL! Needless to say, by game 3, I was back in my element. My stick skills game back quickly, but could still work on improving my endurance. What really made me feel good was when one of the fathers who came to all the games came up to me and said “WOW, this is really coming back to you quick. You have improved so much since the first game”. That felt really great to hear and it felt really great to be back on that filed and know that I still got it, not all of it, but most of it. As I left that day, with my stick on my shoulder and my sons, husband, mother and sister by my side…I knew that I made a great decision to get Back in the Game!